Prayer for the hormonal

Lord, there’s not much more aggravating than someone writing off what I’m feeling by ascribing it to hormones.

And yet, my hormones are killing me.

Maybe not literally. But I am so full of anger and so easily frustrated. It’s easier to yell than to listen, to slam things rather than simply complete a task.

And my brain—it won’t stop. Like a pinball machine, thoughts ricochet in crazy trajectories, never slowing, never stopping. Until they’re gone. Like my memory seems to be. I can’t remember anything. I’m resentful and stubborn and short-sighted.

Oh, how I need You.

You are characterized by love, Lord, and that’s a million miles from what I’m feeling right now. I want to be filled with Your love. I want to show it to other people. In my rational moments, there is no doubt about this.

But in the heat of the moment, my emotions take over. I can’t pray; my thoughts are in chaos. I can’t rest, but I’m exhausted.

God, be my peace. Be the calm in the midst of the storm. I know this isn’t a tragic situation. I realize there are so many more important needs right now. But I need to connect with You. I need to feel Your soothing presence, to slow myself long enough to simply breathe You in. I need to remember that You are with me and that You are in control. I need to relax into an awareness of You. I need to let go of my hostility and tear down the walls I erect in these moments to keep everyone away.

Help me, Lord. Help me stop resisting You. Help me let You in. Help me put aside my irrational responses and abide in You.

In You. Because that is a place of serenity. Calm. An oasis of peace. A place where I am understood, where I am not overwhelmed, and where I can be fully me. Emotions and all. Good and bad. Somehow there is nothing I can do to push You away. You embrace me, hear me, hold me—and love me. No matter what I deserve, You simply offer me Your love.

And that—that knowledge—is what brings calm to my soul. Tears to my eyes, and a plentiful helping of humility. Grace. It’s what I needed—all that I need.

And it’s exactly who You are.

Thank You, Jesus. Amen.

3 Responses to “Prayer for the hormonal”

  1. Louanne says:

    I am still amazed at how God works and speaks to us. Just this very morning, I sat, praying this same prayer. Lately my mind has been exactly how you described it. A pinball machine of thoughts racing around my head. I haven’t been able to pray the deep prayers I usually pray because my mind won’t let me. I asked God, why is this happening and please make it stop. Hormones are probably the culprit as I’ve noticed other bodily signs of such but I didn’t put two and two together. Thank you for sharing, and know that you are not alone. I’m guessing you, I, and millions of other women are in God’s graces with this same problem. Thank goodness He made us so He understands much better than we do what’s going on with our minds and bodies.

  2. Kris says:

    You have no idea how much I appreciate your transparency. You put into words what so many try to cover up with a smile. Thank you. Thank you for being real. Thank you for reminding me that God is capable…and willing… to help me through everything I deal with, even my control-freak nature and my 43 yr old hormones. You are a blessing. Thank you for being an open vessel for God to use.
    Hugs to you!
    K

  3. Suz says:

    Thanks for this prayer after another round of my husband dealing with/tolerating my hormonal swings….so badly needed this prayed. Thanks for putting into words all those feelings, thoughts and actions.

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