Born again

I drove home in the dark, still unable to comprehend that Mom was gone. Three years of fighting cancer, and I knew it was coming, but I wasn’t prepared for those final moments. I took the back roads home, and in the middle of nowhere, late at night, was stopped by a train. I had Third Day’s Revelation CD in, and as the train thundered past and I sat all alone in the dark, I heard the song Born Again in a whole new way. I had a vision of my mom…

She was lost when you found her here, she was broken beyond repair
Then He came along and He sang His song over her*…

And it was like I could finally see clearly.

It feels like she’s born again… It feels like she’s living… for the very first time, for the very first time of her life.

As tears rolled down my face, I could see her — not the way she looked when she died, and not the way she looked before she got sick — but it was still Mom. Walking through throngs of people, looking around in wonder. Such wonder, awe, and delight. Walking into eternity, overcome with a feeling of welcome. Open, curious, just beginning to understand what it all meant.

…the love that I feel is so much more real than anything.
The life I have known is only the beginning…

No fear, no worry, no pain. When we say ‘born again,’ referring to the way our lives have changed since we found Him, it’s accurate and meaningful. But when we see it in terms of the transformation that takes place when someone steps from this earth into eternity, it’s a whole new thing.

Feels like she’s breathing, feels like she’s moving, for the very first time… of her life.

Truly new life. Complete and utter transformation. This song has become the soundtrack to a movie that plays over and over in my mind. I see my mom, a version of her I never knew but will know someday—

…Looking for something that was more than what she had yesterday…
Then He came to her and He gave to her life and a love that she’s never known, that she’s never felt before…

Feels like she’s born again… living for the very first time, she’s living for the first time, of my life.

*adapted lyrics

2 Responses to “Born again”

  1. wow! I see my daddy in much the same way. He had polio when he was 16 and for the rest of his life walked with the aid of a full leg brace and crutches. The moment he took his last breath on this earth, he had no more need of the brace and crutches. I cannot wait to see him whole and walking without assistive aids.

  2. Mary Cloncs says:

    Thank you for another beautiful tribute to your Mom.

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